forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet...

MATH
Comments:
Flavia, you should be doing a lot better than these grades indicate. You are a strong student and, given a little more effort, could easily have earned an A this semester. Please do not get caught up in all of the chatting that goes on in class. It will negatively affect your academic performance
Grade- C
....OUCH..

CHEM
...concerning attendance: absent 5 times so far, that is borderline too much
...concerning work habits: Needs improvement. It seems Flavia is always late when it comes to the homeworks and lab sheets. This has caused her to lose lots of credit

...concerning class participation and attitude: Needs improvement. Flavia clearly is not a dull child. Rather she is a bit apathetic and somewhat unmotivated. On several occasions we've had the why-do-I-need-to-learn-chemistry conversation, but I don't think much has transpired as a result of it. Recently Flavia has shown me more life, but back in February her was progress was unacceptable. I need Flavia to focus on the tasks at hand in class. I realize that the course has some obscure/hard-to-grasp topics, but that is no excuse to zone out or talk or read other materials in the middle of class. Again, recently it has been better, but I need her to improve from now until June.

...concerning tests and quizzes: Her most recent mark was a nice improvement. But overall her exam grades are below the class average.
Grade: C
.....even more OWW>...oh shum how could you??

ENGLISH
At several points this semester, Flavia, you have shown the true colors of your ability: Your this I believe in action and ISA poems, for example. Through occasional comments and several writings, I know how capable you are of strong analysis. But what you need to accept is that superb students lead by example, they do not check out. If you are not content with the depth of a discussion, take us where you want. If you think the entire class missed something, write to me about it. If you decide to take ownership over your education, I have no doubt you can still achieve an A.
Grade: B/C

eh?

HISTORY
Flavia,
I really enjoy your insightful comments and the way you make connections between the curriculum and your life (you get IT). I do get frustrated sometimes by you finding your own path in the middle of class. But when I put the good and the bad side by side I'm overwhelmed by the good so I'll have to learn to live with it. It's good learning with you.
Grade: A

..ahhhh....i love you turner
second teacher that ever made me acutally want to learn..props to mr. barton


anyway this entry is not to show off my grades (or lack of grades) just for myself for future reference.
i will see you when my parents sotp harrasing me because GOD FORBID i get some C's. suck a dick

OH AND ANOTHER THING

SLAVERY, RACISM, IS ALL ABOUT


DIVIDE AND CONQUER

theyll divide us, make us fight amongst ourselves, because of SKIN COLOR, the way we LOOK- SUPERFICIALNESS,
JUST SO WE DONT NOTICE THAT WE ARE

ALLL
BEING DECIEVED!!

FUCK THIS. i jsut watched this documentary about the protests agaisnt the FCAA (free trade). free trade is bullshit it takes jobs away from americans and completely exploits the people in third world countries that are hired instead. so these protestors went down to miami in 2003, and were totally peaceful. the police were violent towards them, pelting them with rubber bullets, and spraying htem with pepper spray. thers this one shot of the police in all their riot gear, lined up by the hundreds, BEATING these protestors and backing them into a fence and spraying htem and pushing them on the ground arresting them. WAHT THE FUCK IS WRONG IWTH THIS SOCIETY. WE LIVE IN A FUCKING POLICE STATE> people cant even protest against things that are compltely unjust, we have to live in theis stupid society wherer we go on with our meaningless lives and compeltely ignbore whats really going on. I WILL NOT SIT AT HOME AND NOT GO TO THE "FAKE" PROTESTS. NOTHING DOES ANYTHING, SO WHY SIT AT HOME WHEN YOU CAN BE ON THE STREETS SHOWING HOW UNJUST HTE POLICE ARE AND HOW THEY COMPLETELY SHOOT EVERYTHING DOWN THAT GOES AGAISNT OUR GOVERNEMTNS AGENDA== ANYTHING THAT GOES AGAISNT CAPILATISM> EVERYTHING IS ABOUT MONEY. NOT ONLY IN AMERICA. IN THE WHOLE
FUCKING
WORLD.
how do we escape??/?/' we doint contribute our energy, our time, our MONEY. why do we go to fucking h&m and pay for overpriced SHIT tahts made by little girls in china being paid not even a dollar a day?? WHY??? because we keep being distracted by our "reality" our DRAMATIC HIGSHCOOL LIVES WHERE THE BIGGEST DRAMA I HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT IS MY BOYFRIEND DUMPING ME>

we are compeltely controlled by the powerful, it scares to me think that these police are just normal people, COMPLETELY BRAINWASHED. but hwat can we do? its not realistic for us to drop out of school, taht doesnt really do anything, then were just sitting at home. well some of us. the only way to do it is UNITY. if everyone stopped working, WENT ON STRIKE. the mta strike was one of the most uplifting thisngs ive ever seen, poeple GOING AGAISNT THE GOVERNEMTN, SAYING WHAT THEY WANT, WHAT THEY DESERVE. but then being made to go back to work. WE NEED TO MAKE PEOPLE REALIZE WAHTS REALLY IMPORTANT. SPREADING THE WORD< ONE PERSON AT A TIME IS THE ONLY WAY TO DO IT>

my perspective has drasitcally changed, i thought htis all before but i had never seen real evidence until now, or maybe it jsut hasnt settled in until now. i cant bleieve i live such a meaningless life. i can tbelieve i can dare say "i appreciate the life i have, the people" of course i do BUT THAT DOESNT MATTER. DO WE WANT TO LIVE IN IGNORANCE?? TAHTS WHAT THEY WANT US TO DO!!!!

in the documentary they show the media reporting hte protest, saying that "violent ANARCHISTS fled onto the streets putting people into danger, the police were VERY PROFFESIONAL AND TIRED TO RESTRAIN THEM.""
BULLSHIT
HOW CAN A HUMAN SOCIETY BE SO GREATLY LIED TO BY THEIR OWN EQUALS WHO ARE MADE TO BE IN A HIGHER STATUS BECAUSE OF ONE THING-- MONEY"

tommorow i could be bakc in school, talking about my petty problems, laughing at sutpid jokes, OR i could be telling epople what i know, which everyone should do.
maeve..I COULDNT DISAGREE WITH YOU MORE. THOSE PEACEFUL PROTESTORS MAY NOT HAVE DONE ANYTHING, MAY NOT HAVE AFFECTED THE GOVERNEMTN, BUT THATS THE GOVERNMENT'S IGNORANCE AND IF WE DONT GO TO THE STREETS AND JOIN THE FAKEST AND MOST MEANINGLESS PROTEST, WE ARE
BACKING DOWN./
THEY MAKE THEM MEANINGLESS BECAUSE THEY WANT US TO NOT PARTICIPATE. SO IF WE SIT AT HOME AND SAY "ITS NOT WORTH IT" WERE DOING WHAT THEY WANT.

i cant promise anything, but for myself, im going to tryto stop WASTING my money. teh more people that stop spending money oN CRAP, the more people are going agsitn what they want us to do.

im out, watching two more PROPAGANDA MOVIES.

can you say- hangover?
last night was really fun, i have massive amounts of sand in my hair and clothes, i lost my hoop earrings and most of the gum i had just bought, and got smacked and thrown around by joey and matt. oh yes and consumed a disgusting amount of vodka. never again- i HATE vodka. even the thought of it is making me nauseous.
my head is pounding.
i dont think the two advil i took did ANYTHING.
FUCKK.
i have to go out to dinner with my godmother tonight, but shes cool so its fine, and im excited for a real dinner, ive been eating oatmeal and yogurt with cereal every night.
oh and yes, my mother DID become a raving bitch, like i predicted, and i CANT leave late, whcih means ill miss alexs dinner nad matts birthday, because my asshole mother MUST see a concert. BITCH BITCH BITCH.
i need to buy hoops, their all i wear, and i need to buy extra strength excedrin. OMG im in so much pain FUCKKK.

i pray to god i dont get caught for plagarizing because i think im gonna have to just use arielles paper. well most of it, and add some sentances. and i guess ihave to learn about global warming. so maybe i wont realyl plagarize.
ive had an epiphany
i need to stop worrying and thinking that im depressed just cause i get in bad moods all the time. we, as in me and the rest of the peole that are liek me, need to realize that without bad moods, good moods wouldnt be so special, just liek being sad and happy. so when im in a bad mood or i feel shitty, ill know that there are good times to come. last night was really good, and the space thing makes sense, i just dont know exactly how much to give, im a littel confused.
i found the story of brokeback moutain. so i have to read it now before i start my paper.

tonight, im gonna try to NOT be a douche bag and leave right BEFORE the girls go and have a good time without me, cause im so mad about all those times ive missed to go sit in a box. my life is what i choose to make it , it doesnt revolve around one thing.
ANYWAY im going to see brokeback mountain, i heard theres no sex scenes which is VERY dissapointing, when i pay 10.50 (WHY) i expect a really graphic sex scene please.
neopets needs to happen again, that shit was fun.
this night looks good, i think itll be fun, if we find a party to go to or atelsat somethign to do. i need to find somewhere to sleep.
peace and love

his bipolar ness has rubbed off on me.

flaviberri (12:27:53 AM): ive just been feeling liek crap lately- i feel liekl im going from being realyl really happy into slowly depressed and self loathing..liek i come up a little to the top and then i jsut go right back down again its so predicatble

i think...im going crazy
im waiting to see what my response is

ive passed the test. i really should just stop smoking weed. since i stopped smoking so much the times i do recently are just not good.
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck i dont know waht i need anymore





I NEED SUMMER. i dont mean to depend on a season for happiness, is that weird?, but im craving it.
please let it be a good year and me not sink down close to the bottom again.

i might go to paris for feb. break. i dont want to 1- go on vacation with my parents 2-not find somone to go with me because i can bring somone its only 193 dollars round trip, eh? eh? anyone? and 3- miss matts birthday
so this weekend so far has sucked balls. i was at school for 13 hours on friday, then i went to celebrate my birthday with lots of people, had a fit of jealousy attack, got WASTED, liek more drunk then ive ever been, i was seeing double of everything, and then got caught by 4 cop cars and recieved, along with all the people i brought to celebrate MY birthday, summons to go to court and pay a fine because of a miniature amount of alchohol. oh yes, i forgot, then i went to matts, threw up, passed out, didnt get any lovin because i literally could not move, woke up, dragged my ass home, threw up, went to SCHOOL for 5 hours, witnessed our whole cast progessively get fevers, and came home because now im probably sick. oh and i burnt my tongue.
i will never do lights again i solemnly swear. they have ruined my 17th birthday, and if tommorow night falls through i will cry. hysterically. and then do something rash.
however, i got 200 dollars from my grandparents for my birthday, and i have alot of money right now, more then i ever have, but thank god, that does not make me much happier. i think ill be superficial and buy myself a pretty dress tommorow. and then not get to wear it at night because something will go wrong. what did i expect though, it was friday the 13th, there were signs everywhere. i got the total $6.66 when i paid for sodas. and i blew 45 dollars on alchohol that caused a bad night for everyone. i feel soooo bad for everyone getting summons, if we hadnt been celebrating my birthday we wouldnt have been in the park damn. i really hope that my 17th birthday is not a sign of the year to come. and i really hope i still have a boyfriend this year. i also forgot to add to my bad things of this weekend list that matt thinks i like nick weinstock..??...becase when i was PISS DRUNK i jumped on him. but its not ok if i get mad when i think hes doing the same thing. i feel really insecure today about him, i keep getting this feeling that hes planning on breaking up with me. i think he might think the same thing about me, maybe, but i dont think he understands how muhc i ridiculously love him.
ok im going to stop being so negative and just hope that everythign else goes well this weekend. and i dont get "food poisoning" again, as i told my mother. when im older and grown up i might feel bad for how muhc i lie to that woman.
peace and love

so it was my birthday today and the first half was most excellent. i didnt attend school and went to matts house instead, and slept for a while, watched the l word, got some birthday loving. then i had to come to school, with matt, which shocked everyone that he left his box, and i got presents yay. johns a sweetheart he wrapped up this coach umbrella he found and let me name his guitar....hmm...and i got a lovely poster from the girlies of us fucked up..in every..single..picure. i have mad fat arms wat is that ew. neway i realyl hope this weekend is fun. the weather was so beautiful today and i didnt get to enjoy it DAMN. i hope its nice out tommorow and i hope homers works out.




fuck you little shop of horrors, fuck you.